天亮,上班。650Please respect copyright.PENANAqT02YLpTd6
650Please respect copyright.PENANAVfBWQMwyLD
擠進人山人海的車廂,心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物,我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟,好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。650Please respect copyright.PENANAgxlEOOAErU
650Please respect copyright.PENANARKtFNdpWuK
車廂一如往常,平穩中帶輕微搖晃,教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲,繼續進食,令人側目。650Please respect copyright.PENANAo6ix5BiQYd
650Please respect copyright.PENANA2s7C7B1886
食物的細碎,像沙子一樣,在人們毫不注意的情況下,悄然掉在地上,再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站,人們再肆意加以踐踏,令碎粉再度粉碎。650Please respect copyright.PENANAPHfgt4I193
650Please respect copyright.PENANAh1KydtXMb6
到站了,我有意無意地繞過人羣,「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉,心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上,我回頭望進車廂,想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉,但列車經已開駛。650Please respect copyright.PENANAbx1d9Z91g2
650Please respect copyright.PENANAniLEvcWJFT
看不見,罷。
天黑,下班。650Please respect copyright.PENANANHFwYO3hPI
650Please respect copyright.PENANAtTSXIbwguR
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂,繼續講上司的壞話。650Please respect copyright.PENANA01HuVF7Tjk
650Please respect copyright.PENANAm6dyMK3qQW
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。650Please respect copyright.PENANA1SqMlmYpYY
650Please respect copyright.PENANAgl1pzbk1OK
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不!有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰?我看不見……我不想看見……650Please respect copyright.PENANAgHrJFVWrm3
650Please respect copyright.PENANAkbHLcrTaki
「啪」的一聲,男同事一手拍在我的小腿上,那隻螞蟻——扁了。650Please respect copyright.PENANAjqzaOrCO91
650Please respect copyright.PENANA4PoExXTxLz
「沒事了!」他笑了笑,問我:「你很怕小昆蟲?」650Please respect copyright.PENANASh3CrNejEz
650Please respect copyright.PENANAz8KgBkAiIx
「不,只是怕蟻。」我感覺到,我的唇還在顫抖,但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司,午飯時間。650Please respect copyright.PENANAsAsdJBVnkN
650Please respect copyright.PENANA8w0KMB0ElW
甲小姐正在上網看劇;乙先生在打盹;丙小姐外出吃飯去;丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒;戊小姐……650Please respect copyright.PENANAX7HAADsDvz
650Please respect copyright.PENANAKGoH7argzc
看著同事們的百態,我突然覺得自己和他們一樣,都是很渺小的生命體,小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事,尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌,不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎?那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別?650Please respect copyright.PENANAxRCCvSGj8m
650Please respect copyright.PENANAEb8mFmDfGK
驀地,我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過,卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上,讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失,我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實,真正的我只是一隻螞蟻,不過會偶爾做白日夢,幻想自己變成人類,過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活,是有目的的付出,有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑,多奢侈!無他,這就是意義。650Please respect copyright.PENANAVk42g6lxa4
650Please respect copyright.PENANAT7JOCkbDe0
還是……650Please respect copyright.PENANAyRmqJdt7aG
650Please respect copyright.PENANAdKUhmGvLbt
其實,真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢,幻想自己是一隻蟻,過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味,只懂一味尋找食物。無他,這就是生存!
公司,工作。650Please respect copyright.PENANACvMf0oaVhQ
650Please respect copyright.PENANAVPQzxz3uSY
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。650Please respect copyright.PENANARWatFjfI4G
650Please respect copyright.PENANALjrMsAia4W
大家心知犯錯的不是我,奈何人是怕事的,只好把我推上斷頭台。事後,一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。650Please respect copyright.PENANAqWapzs3vsU
650Please respect copyright.PENANA6hrew9G1eW
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。650Please respect copyright.PENANAtTuG5Mwp8P
650Please respect copyright.PENANAGTYt5hB9PO
剛巧,一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。650Please respect copyright.PENANACwOePz06FB
650Please respect copyright.PENANAiZnVRv9UBl
快意,笑了。
酒吧,喝酒。650Please respect copyright.PENANAqSpIwlwmng
650Please respect copyright.PENANAIYGBtdm9PH
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎?為何現在也怕酒起來?」男同事笑問。650Please respect copyright.PENANAvjWKPuFvnV
650Please respect copyright.PENANAXbh2lvPvkg
「其實,我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。650Please respect copyright.PENANAYohMKiM8Ku
650Please respect copyright.PENANATXQ4h6dKDV
「還是……你根本不會喝酒?」他哈哈大笑。650Please respect copyright.PENANAUiYaqlNokj
650Please respect copyright.PENANAx7FcxW2qyN
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲,我突然變得不大抗拒,乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。650Please respect copyright.PENANAcyw0lVefvc
650Please respect copyright.PENANADr6J8Q4oFU
醉倒。650Please respect copyright.PENANAyWJrLoc9jg
650Please respect copyright.PENANA6eDkuLkctZ
迷糊間,我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體,不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲,想要到它的洞穴去……650Please respect copyright.PENANAWzJnKpLeCw
650Please respect copyright.PENANAr1bSWiGhBN
「上天取走你的一扇門,定會留給你一扇窗。」650Please respect copyright.PENANAA9ZAiFRcWs
650Please respect copyright.PENANAIYudxOIMKV
今趟,上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期,醫院。650Please respect copyright.PENANAikXdq7Cwg9
650Please respect copyright.PENANA2j9Cb62jWz
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病,還未明確,因為報告要待下星期才會完成。650Please respect copyright.PENANAu7SREaOE24
650Please respect copyright.PENANALOysnOW1Sk
看見媽的時候,家中各人都是淚眼漣漣,很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。650Please respect copyright.PENANAQtfIJGiWgv
650Please respect copyright.PENANAYcLFqYbgmH
「我覺得……」近幾天,媽的話都變得斷斷續續:「自己……」650Please respect copyright.PENANAzEQBnvtEaM
650Please respect copyright.PENANAUXc808ImoM
大家都屏息靜氣,深怕這是她的最後一句話。650Please respect copyright.PENANAWSQkG2oSuj
650Please respect copyright.PENANAk3N2MgHN6C
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音,輕如柔絲,但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。650Please respect copyright.PENANAXFXKVeqVwV
650Please respect copyright.PENANAz0c8tsYGsO
死寂。650Please respect copyright.PENANAr1p2o8VhgX
650Please respect copyright.PENANAosu1naxBsf
出乎我意料,這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話,不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家,晚飯。650Please respect copyright.PENANAgxeEVQdneK
650Please respect copyright.PENANAqPgc0k5mii
一枱六椅,異常的沉默。電視的聲浪,掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意,繼續吃。650Please respect copyright.PENANADDSkljFuo3
650Please respect copyright.PENANA1DVPj3v8C3
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子:「不如外出吃飯。」650Please respect copyright.PENANAQVy6XWs1GZ
650Please respect copyright.PENANAT8wU3ukjLr
妹放下筷子衝進房內,甩門;姨低下頭來,但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見;婆呆了,眼眶紅潤;我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。650Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6b8sbXzTM
650Please respect copyright.PENANA6fd9vFVLaM
我心想:世界末日來臨後,地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻?
每次望著媽,心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣,彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。650Please respect copyright.PENANA5dHTLyPRgx
650Please respect copyright.PENANAfe80RbLjls
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑!就是因為她是一隻螞蟻,所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭,去減輕她的負擔。650Please respect copyright.PENANARxT1FhztJ5
650Please respect copyright.PENANAQPYNHIQcTl
久而久之,我每次一見到她,便會掉頭走。650Please respect copyright.PENANAgqN6D6IXoO
650Please respect copyright.PENANA22SlrYupVT
但我知道,我永沒能走遠。
男友家,床上。650Please respect copyright.PENANAqlckiZ4Gzj
650Please respect copyright.PENANA0o961t6F58
前奏後,男友進入極度興奮狀態,沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時,我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。650Please respect copyright.PENANAIJJCS52d1i
650Please respect copyright.PENANANZsYpv04l1
産房內有一張床,床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了,是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示,她要生産了。不消一會,整張床上都是幼蟻,恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。650Please respect copyright.PENANAXYRGCUrcqN
650Please respect copyright.PENANAsnzxm4wjAa
我驚恐萬分之際,耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音:「他朝君體也相同!」650Please respect copyright.PENANAq0ugnAU41C
650Please respect copyright.PENANAYbzesJ9cxT
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮,於是更用力……
舊生聚會,內地某酒家。650Please respect copyright.PENANA2FjeKtcBk9
650Please respect copyright.PENANA23ptaOUPna
說也奇怪,舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意,說會給我們驚喜。650Please respect copyright.PENANAwihF0BE3yL
650Please respect copyright.PENANAkLhBzbCgKQ
「蟻宴?」我呆了,但逃不了。650Please respect copyright.PENANAUvcMoexRUO
650Please respect copyright.PENANA9Zn2jwDUCi
「你有收看《天與地》嗎?」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。650Please respect copyright.PENANAuWubdSBQ55
650Please respect copyright.PENANABKEt8Pkd2l
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼!」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。650Please respect copyright.PENANA9fNsaGmi2c
650Please respect copyright.PENANAOJOmVBS3iS
「結局何如?」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。650Please respect copyright.PENANAzLNKg3g3nt
650Please respect copyright.PENANAkrxEocTgZh
「沒好下場!」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。650Please respect copyright.PENANA8C2f18mQgE
650Please respect copyright.PENANATR1fVye9lE
「對!沒好下場!」我在心裡重覆著,衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物:蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時,他都會放一些寵物在床邊,以增加他的性趣。650Please respect copyright.PENANAIvZ0AUMFjk
650Please respect copyright.PENANAPrTJzZGTdX
今趟,床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後,我不經意的問道:「你的寵物呢?」650Please respect copyright.PENANAEu85Qot1J7
650Please respect copyright.PENANAW3EmKJaUMD
「在你體內。」650Please respect copyright.PENANA0zpKI1r7vZ
650Please respect copyright.PENANAzELVjFmQSM
「甚麼?」650Please respect copyright.PENANAJWlhsxDrLS
650Please respect copyright.PENANAu76RlzoiAy
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。650Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2pIJd5dOX
650Please respect copyright.PENANAvmyBjGhpr3
它平常會做甚麼?做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯,它會做的事真的很多,但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活!它最好立刻消失!650Please respect copyright.PENANAaHROvgzrCy
650Please respect copyright.PENANAz5o0rGu5gp
結果,我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上,我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。650Please respect copyright.PENANAnchodrALsG
650Please respect copyright.PENANAkgJwNTujmz
「她真的死了嗎?」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊,但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。650Please respect copyright.PENANALKF53ytaZ5
650Please respect copyright.PENANAUeKf6vdqNF
「誰?」另一聲音反問。650Please respect copyright.PENANAxnGUys4aoI
650Please respect copyright.PENANAuDdZiX1KI1
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道:「她……」650Please respect copyright.PENANAVzAPojnQV2
650Please respect copyright.PENANAIuZupCHhqz
靜。650Please respect copyright.PENANAzLnoUGUqe3
650Please respect copyright.PENANAvaIQFVDeVj
我回過神來,低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我:「我的耳朵有毛病嗎?為何會聽到螞蟻講話?」650Please respect copyright.PENANAUaxkdk6WWe
650Please respect copyright.PENANAaIQ0ez9ft8
醫:「不。是你的壓力過大,導致有幻聽。」650Please respect copyright.PENANAydoIWA8zi0
650Please respect copyright.PENANAf80zShvrRO
我:「我有精神病?」650Please respect copyright.PENANAOv42561Q22
650Please respect copyright.PENANArGwTgWkzBB
醫:「是情緒病。」650Please respect copyright.PENANAJaaUToO2ch
650Please respect copyright.PENANAxLx4mhbj2o
我:「怎麼辦?」650Please respect copyright.PENANAaAFgjVJyl6
650Please respect copyright.PENANAoed1CqOP4M
醫:「我會處方一些藥物,你要按時服用;另外,你也要多休息……」650Please respect copyright.PENANAFS5trkZExD
650Please respect copyright.PENANAseyfj8WE2H
我:「謝謝醫生。」650Please respect copyright.PENANAhSn7zBfrje
650Please respect copyright.PENANAw2JWea3fOY
醫:「不用謝。」650Please respect copyright.PENANAXB4QzozUKq
650Please respect copyright.PENANAE7s5JKNFkY
離開診所時,我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。650Please respect copyright.PENANA9uYQNjc6NX
650Please respect copyright.PENANAkXD9uJ6I70
不,我走近細看,是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻?650Please respect copyright.PENANA5y592C6lnC
650Please respect copyright.PENANAKParQkptGU
醫生替我作身體檢查,一切正常;650Please respect copyright.PENANAahBhxDP5WY
650Please respect copyright.PENANATy1H59LK9Y
男友向我解釋,螞蟻之說,純粹幽默;650Please respect copyright.PENANAxq9XSvViz7
650Please respect copyright.PENANA4TiUi0wTvl
同事都勸我休息,減少工作量;650Please respect copyright.PENANANMIq9uUwBq
650Please respect copyright.PENANA4DyVE5Pva7
……650Please respect copyright.PENANAjJN8m5mgRk
650Please respect copyright.PENANAPPeY6I8DDz
「真的有蟻在我體內!」我尖叫,奪門而出,從天台一躍而下,肝腦塗地。650Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5SiRSnexR
650Please respect copyright.PENANAtyeWikTR3o
臨死前,我看見那東西了——不是蟻,是……