Murky morbid machinations of my mind

Get your feet from my mind

I gotta think

Think of the way

How I’m gonna escape

Escape from this uncertainties

Till I met the devil

I’ll search throughout the universe

How I’m gonna survive

Till I see the stars to show me the road to heaven

Way down we go

As long as we able to see

We see the full of lies of reality to keep us on the ground to make the mistakes

Life is collectively referred to as a dark fantasy, although many of us attempt incorporating ideas in our head, searching for ways to escape reality. I for one believe anything that can befriend you, can kill.

Every creature has a dark side but mine doesn't have my best interests at heart, I mumble short prayers, locking all the doors and windows shut.

Every step I took upstairs, made the wooden stairs creek, I keep having this feeling am been followed but every time I look back, am left with goosebumps and my head increasing in size.

I swallowed an imaginary saliva down my throat and continue walking up slowly otherwise I will freak out and run upstairs, that will mess up my night.

If you know anything about darkness, you'll know it leaves no room for the weakest heart. This foreign presence happens whenever am home alone, I made a research on the life beyond and discovered that the level of one's fear determines how far we're willing to let the darkness in.

I gently crawl under the duvet and sleep on my right side facing the door, my heartbeat was accelerating, you could hear every beat of it. 2,3,4 minutes later, the gruesome feeling was gone and I accidentally took a nap that lasted for two minutes until my ears picked a creaking footstep 👣 approaching in the direction of my room, dragging a metal object on the wall,  I froze on the bed.

I searched for my phone under the duvet and my eyes found it far on the table which was close to the door, this wasn't a normal circumstance so,  my mind is blank.

"Do you wanna play", the voice said, sounding distant but very  near. That was when I remembered all the short phrases used in horror movies, I stupidly find myself screaming them one by one.

Is anyone out there?

"Who the hell are you?"

Show yourself coward.

"What do you want from me?"

The noise died down and just when I thought it's over, the door to my room was kicked open with full force.

The fight is Like Life

When you lie you ain’t gonna survive

Till you make it right

The gorgeous flower plant in your mind will bloom like a paradise

When you speak of your Mind

Don’t rush till you see sunshine

To tell you about the compression of your life

Compassion will teach you how to fly even though you don’t have wings to fly

Remember me

When I’m no longer interested in finding the lonely paradise

To search the sunshines

You will be stronger by the time

To face the bright light like a life

What a waste Day

Nothing but the questions from the people

Ask about the things I’ve never thought about

What a day

At least I can say I’ve survived

For another day

To answer those damn questions

Oops

But

Wait

There was no one else here except me

To ask those questions

Then

Who’s the one asking the questions?

It was you

Who? Me

All the damn time ?

Thinking the wrong hella of a Things

Wasting time, what?

Am I the one who lost the cause the whole time?

Cause of the track of time

What a fool I’ve been

I’ve been Merry chasing since the beginning of time to catch the life

I knew it

What?

Overthinking

I am a dreamer, with aspirations that reach for the distant stars. I imagine all ascended possibilities beyond the mere conscious mortal constraints of reality, envisioning a better future and striving to manifest it through my actions.

Cut a diamond into pieces to see the shine

Forget to see the inside of the eyes

To realize the sunshine

Sunset will set the mood for the sky

You know

It will turn you out to the dark evening

I’ll go rounds and rounds

To escape from the line

And

Join to the circle of life

What a race and hell!

We keep seeing through the mind

To gain the power inside

To escape from the circle of life

Is everyone deserve the treasure of life ?

Or

Is it pressure the holding us a long way?

To forgot us pressure the shininess of mind ?

Sometimes pressure work throughout the process

In order to birth the treasure to the world

Show the light inside.…………………………

Sweetest candy I tasted in a very long time

Doesn’t matter how long it went through to put it through the mouth

It amazed me how it’s got recognized

By me

People still play the same guitar and the same rhythm at the same time to save time

It’s all so simple

Is it worth it to hear the music at the night?

Cause even I said this thousand times

Anyone doesn’t understand the whole point of life

Just look beyond what a gorgeous night we have wasted for this damn fight

I can say this is a hell of a ride

Unite people will resolve the puzzle by night

Mankind has forgotten the basic rules of life

Behind the reason for the destruction is divide of the mind

Is our mind museum to look after every minute to see if there have any dust around it

Yes, there is I think

Holding a grudge back of our heads

To each other

Hating one another

What a dustbin we holding to ourselves

There’s no sweet talk to each other

Going on and going on around you and myself

Clearness of your mind

It will keep you out of trouble

When it comes to clearing your dustbin

You have to clear it entirely without respect

Every day is a challenge

That’s what I’m hearing

Is it really necessary to make this keep going on?

When I see youI can see through youWhat you have been throughThis whole timeDon’t pretend to be someone elseI’m getting to see everything clearlySome of them think I’m a babyYou don’t even get close to me latelyWhy you are acting This way crazyI know everywhere we go we got to see dreamsBut I gotta say it’s gotta be naturalSometimes it’s hard so then it can be fakeHave to look for the right time my dearIf not you will get caught

I can see this life

Different lies

Lay on my mind

Heaven is in the sky

Nothing but crises

In our life

I know I was right

Trying to go to the surface

presureness Got me tight

Barely trying to stand

I know-how to fly

Shakes my heart

The atmosphere is the best solution

Gotta defeat the failure

Mud on my feet

Scars got me loose

History on my mind

I just tried everything I have been through this whole time, I can’t believe I grow up this so fastly, sometimes everything happens so quickly. Everything I gotta do I overthink about it. It’s like I got no Strange anymore. I feel so lazy. I don’t even know what to write now Because of my mind in a race. (you don’t even know how I fell every day about everything) Life is a race we running always we even don’t know what we going after, what we chasing here or there. Every day we wake up and we just do what we have to do after we just think about what we have to leave to do like is there anything else left we have to if it’s we going to do it. If not we just being.

So time, tricking tricking. Every time we just do better or worse. We just do our own fucking thing. I just really want to know what is this. We were a baby, kid, child, teenager, man, old man this line I mentioned previously’s going on. I positively believe this has happened again and again like a cycle, this is a repeat process. Like our ordinary life. Don’t you tired about all of this. We earn money monthly but it’s burned by daily.

I think I got a long journey ahead. I just do whatever I gotta do now. Because I want to escape from this. I just want to live like a human. Human of good minds like a simple man. I’m really tired of being afraid of everything like always. I just feel unhappy I want to be a free, free-minded man. like everyone else. When my mind not in the right position I feel uncomfortable. Like I just want to escape from that moment and go to a better place But there is no such a place as that. But every time I’m trying my best to be my best me. So let be me. I’m still trying.