暑假篇：釋懷516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8ntMDDI0E
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQpUJEmcKY
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzXpByC5ej
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbZJraTdgN
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29vkR8NsVi
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGq8DW8UQkP
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBK91fWw0mP
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe0wv0IK3m
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdWGMN5KQ5
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiIxcGwDWV
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrBCXsggMh
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkL4IoX4NN
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHA6WUT2ERn
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyPCrxwuP2
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPVOaGhoOK
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCMy49drd2
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUnMtbF5bq
一種難以形容的內疚感。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHD0izNF08h
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7101PLDSlj
而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcOvQCww6x
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9jWw8A3ol
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbXh2vL0fp
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BElDtE7tJ
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yFeaPBtlP
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lo35veNKF
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmih0gnoVWD
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79PPyednKy
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOmF0FJvpH
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqgpyFJgFn
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5j8PhOzTV
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bH2iIqWkU
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLSXWjbyfA
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfeSCfZpUE
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8t0z3ioRL
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeuXAMRfn4
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5VnlWZkxw
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3knNTbgy7y
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfkvLD6mHx
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicrcjdXEzh
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRlBpcbx46
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVRuuvP7gN
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASt42ZXYhF
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpYPb51YeY
「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4RgfqNqZ7
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoinNCRZV1
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7phyOSAy7
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqzF0BY4dO
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB025WapwX9
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvr1i6SCYlk
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5krdsrpPlu
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQy2hleT3xv
「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPewE8mJpT0
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWimXrVLBo
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrvoGzZhtM
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIIC5POAop
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEnOkEbjBy
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4skXlXFkFI
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6SAYLSYo3
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuj2PwrzpeM
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCG3frAVTc6
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqDTwKjqo6
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKgUcWTlbo
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vKLxFm32J
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOmtnEEdNy
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UsL8j24bY
而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXHzbNrQyp
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqqe40p9qG
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73m0rqCytY
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9A4wgkg9jl
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uCzUrRF6k
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSO5pHCA4r
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnToC941HM
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnQewbOldx
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACtcu5XIDc
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0DFTE7mCv
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhC3SRBnPcG
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5wgw3IMHG
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVjbSsG5Gn
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5nqXs5kI8
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpb1PWpO2Ge
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGd8uftAU9
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4PWxYJ1Df
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ti7lT6K5G
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgmkaCpFfl
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3a6hPF8UQ
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTJ54oaVG6
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAjRI8WunJ
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQv4aRA1QD
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8swRqxNs33
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqzPdiOFKf
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTacKAMihB
甚麼原來就是我？516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZenKdNcELS
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfdquWpidB
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9muAjU4muI
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxEoWvyN4Q
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFd3mYv1to
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLA9CaJor5
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5L2hkYkqzm
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHqhfkDN59
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwt3XV4DTEx
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與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Fl4yvQ0rO
「到底講緊咩啦……」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEURMXHkU5
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFMmFJFyOa
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpHdKfevCF
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbOt7A3PWW
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkZDuEhgj0
516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DRUqCXj05
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsKTUNyyij
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4xF8GENnl
而且還是三個那麼多……516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvPSvn3QQr
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYftgkqlplm
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7x7O833TYZ
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