Chapter forty-nine
Jon
I look in my spotless mirror and see a smudge.
I shake my head to myself and go in the bathroom grabbing a cloth from underneath my sink.
I wipe the smudge away and return the cloth to its spot underneath the sink.
I look myself over thinking about how Matt might act with me at the beach with him and Novah.
He was acting weirdly passive earlier, even inviting me to the beach.
I have a navy blue button-up shirt on with the top-button unbuttoned and some gray swimming shorts on.
I don't understand Matt and his territorial possessives tendencies.....
I mean if I were with Novah......
Damn it. No, I'm not supposed to think that way.
I mean, does Matt think that I'll sleep with her?
Crap! I feel my dick become erect at that thought and my cheeks heat up.
I quickly walk into the bathroom and splash cold water on my face.
She'll never want you.
She'll never want you.
She'll never want you, I keep repeating in my head
I take my bathroom hand towel and wipe it across my face.
Directly after I dry my face I hear my robotic ringtone.
I walk back into my room and pick my phone up off the bed.
Matt.
I swipe left and answer.
"We're not going...." he says in his usual low, gravelly voice. He usually sounds different when he speaks to me. There's usually more trust and less hate in his voice when he speaks to me, along with Novah, but I guess he's gone to hating me along with EVERYBODY else in this world, Novah always being the one exception.
"Why?" I ask, my voice sounding much higher than I'd intended it to.
"She can't make it and neither can I. Go betray another one of your friends instead."
The call ends after he says that one petty line.
I roll my eyes and huff.
He is so dramatic and vindictive and cynical all the freaking time!
Can't he just be a good friend like I've been all these years?
I mean, I'm a good friend towards everyone but him......there's a special amount of crap I have to deal with when it comes to him.
The weed and alcohol and self-harming and suicide attempts.....
I called Dr. Franklin but Matt never changes.
It doesn't matter how many shrinks his dad hires.
He's stubborn, in denial and bitter, the most IRRITATING combo.
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