Chapter four
Matt
I'm bent over the toilet, throwing up everything I've consumed today. That includes any respect or love Novah might've had for me.
I so fucking devastated about what happened that it's making me sick.283Please respect copyright.PENANAfW4FZnyDtz
I finish vomiting and wipe my mouth with a tissue. I fall to the floor, my throat and stomach hurting.283Please respect copyright.PENANAnAKuZO8KHf
"Fucckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!" I yell, not caring if the neighbors complain. "God damn it!" I yell and bang the floor. My eyes start to water as I think if her but I hold the tears back. I am not about to cry.283Please respect copyright.PENANAAqmM9FbExN
I can't fucking function. Novah, the person I care about more than anyone......fucking hates me.
I hate myself.
I should really just off myself now.
No. I need to be here to protect her. From the world. I can't do that if I'm dead.
That's why I really can't leave this city.
I can't be away from her.
I'd rather die than be away from her......
I pull my favorite pocket knife out of my pocket where I always keep it.283Please respect copyright.PENANAg4dOMRfjLv
"God, I love you so much Novah," I say aloud.283Please respect copyright.PENANAoIyl1WTS2M