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My head is spinning. Between the weed, the vodka, and the blood trickling from my arm.153Please respect copyright.PENANAyIzARaCScf
You should just kill yourself.153Please respect copyright.PENANADSrU49IjeO
No no no no.....153Please respect copyright.PENANAShL6EFvVUC
Once those thoughts intrude, it's over.
Fuck.153Please respect copyright.PENANANweMEL2AjF
The one person who liked you, the one person who wanted you, doesn't want you anymore. Now what? my inner voice reminds me.153Please respect copyright.PENANAW1TLU4vc1o
I grab the bottle of vodka and take another swig, hoping to drown out the thoughts, knowing damn well, alcohol will make it worst.153Please respect copyright.PENANAWhALZKgkEV
Why would she do that to me? I fucking hate her.153Please respect copyright.PENANAKMLo7aWwem
But I love her so, so much.
I want her right now.
I need her so badly.153Please respect copyright.PENANAMwU8OKocOL
I can feel my mind caving in. Too many emotions are pouring down on me, like a never-ending rainstorm.
I haven't shed one tear since I got here, and it's getting awfully hard to hold back. I feel like sobbing for days on end, but I know if I start......I'll never stop.153Please respect copyright.PENANAoZVSUtCTaG
I hear Novah's voice in my head.153Please respect copyright.PENANANHFa8iUXUV
My beautiful boy......153Please respect copyright.PENANAQPivGBCuVA
It gave me so much hope that she thought I was beautiful. That she thought I was good. All my life, I've been told I was bad. A suspect.153Please respect copyright.PENANAsI5YqdbPYE
Someone finally thought I was worthy. The way she would look into my eyes and run her fingers through my hair. She would kiss my lips so gently like she was afraid to break me or something. She treated me like I was precious.
And now......now.......she doesn't want me anymore.
I'm discarded trash just like I was before.
That thought is so painful. I get that sinking feeling in my gut and it starts to get hard to breathe.
My hands are trembling and the cuts I just recently made are still bleeding, I didn't even bother to clean them or anything. I'm letting the blood flow freely.153Please respect copyright.PENANAptRqv1EWK8
Just then, something dawns on me.
What if I just end it all, right now?
All my suffering would be over.
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