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My head is spinning. Between the weed, the vodka, and the blood trickling from my arm.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fMkaKmbii
You should just kill yourself.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBmkV7w8UD
No no no no.....179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpbCCQNUvR
Once those thoughts intrude, it's over.
Fuck.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoexW41BKu
The one person who liked you, the one person who wanted you, doesn't want you anymore. Now what? my inner voice reminds me.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFd2r2ccuHh
I grab the bottle of vodka and take another swig, hoping to drown out the thoughts, knowing damn well, alcohol will make it worst.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMOHEAbGPK
Why would she do that to me? I fucking hate her.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0unZ7Tc6sp
But I love her so, so much.
I want her right now.
I need her so badly.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WimEgJN0M
I can feel my mind caving in. Too many emotions are pouring down on me, like a never-ending rainstorm.
I haven't shed one tear since I got here, and it's getting awfully hard to hold back. I feel like sobbing for days on end, but I know if I start......I'll never stop.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjUHkDU7gX
I hear Novah's voice in my head.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaOcymI6gH
My beautiful boy......179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2K0FfqJZK
It gave me so much hope that she thought I was beautiful. That she thought I was good. All my life, I've been told I was bad. A suspect.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxH4hdWAB06
Someone finally thought I was worthy. The way she would look into my eyes and run her fingers through my hair. She would kiss my lips so gently like she was afraid to break me or something. She treated me like I was precious.
And now......now.......she doesn't want me anymore.
I'm discarded trash just like I was before.
That thought is so painful. I get that sinking feeling in my gut and it starts to get hard to breathe.
My hands are trembling and the cuts I just recently made are still bleeding, I didn't even bother to clean them or anything. I'm letting the blood flow freely.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5zMtUZQUY
Just then, something dawns on me.
What if I just end it all, right now?
All my suffering would be over.
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