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My head is spinning. Between the weed, the vodka, and the blood trickling from my arm.172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2m7wCvWFoW
You should just kill yourself.172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CYsxYXrUi
No no no no.....172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4yR94O5dt
Once those thoughts intrude, it's over.
Fuck.172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OBQ4YLZfU
The one person who liked you, the one person who wanted you, doesn't want you anymore. Now what? my inner voice reminds me.172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ30AkK2T6HP
I grab the bottle of vodka and take another swig, hoping to drown out the thoughts, knowing damn well, alcohol will make it worst.172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8oXJUC2Kd
Why would she do that to me? I fucking hate her.172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8X3IJhL435
But I love her so, so much.
I want her right now.
I need her so badly.172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7dNy5h6iS
I can feel my mind caving in. Too many emotions are pouring down on me, like a never-ending rainstorm.
I haven't shed one tear since I got here, and it's getting awfully hard to hold back. I feel like sobbing for days on end, but I know if I start......I'll never stop.172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1pb5Y7goh
I hear Novah's voice in my head.172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbqLuGhwDd
My beautiful boy......172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykhEL8ubI3
It gave me so much hope that she thought I was beautiful. That she thought I was good. All my life, I've been told I was bad. A suspect.172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2g1eaeIq5
Someone finally thought I was worthy. The way she would look into my eyes and run her fingers through my hair. She would kiss my lips so gently like she was afraid to break me or something. She treated me like I was precious.
And now......now.......she doesn't want me anymore.
I'm discarded trash just like I was before.
That thought is so painful. I get that sinking feeling in my gut and it starts to get hard to breathe.
My hands are trembling and the cuts I just recently made are still bleeding, I didn't even bother to clean them or anything. I'm letting the blood flow freely.172Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBxb9yjfdj
Just then, something dawns on me.
What if I just end it all, right now?
All my suffering would be over.
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