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My dad wasn't really home but he left a mark on my mom's face that will make me remember him for the rest of my life. My mom said that she just fell off the stairs because she was rushin to go to work. Like really? there's no one more time conscious than my mom so she is just protecting her abuser as always. Well, I can't judge her because I do that too but I know there are limits to this. And he is reaching my limit. I don't know what will happen if it does happen though; would I end up killin him or would we run away? I don't really care actually as long as he will be out of our lives or I won't ever have to see his face or hear his voice ever again! The rest of the day was quiet. Mom is usually like that when she is mad but my dad doesn't understand why she's like that so he'll get physical. I try to explain to him that people react differently when their mad and that's just how mom is and when she does that, I just let her be because I know she will be on a better mood sooner or later. After that, we can talk about it without screaming on the top of our lungs. I guess dad is just plain selfish because when he's mad, he just does what he wants- he hurts people and he says bullshit. Then he thinks that what he is doin is all fine since he's providing for the family and he's sometimes kind. I can't voice out my thoughts or these things to someone but even if I had the chance, I would not do it because I will hurt him instead. I will have my revenge whether the universe likes it or not. I will taint my innocence or my spotless record just to break him down just as much as he did to us. I will be scared at first, I will think that I can't do it because that's how much he has damaged my self-esteem but I will do it anyway. There is no light at the end of this tunnel and I completely accept that because I want my mom to be free. She deserves it after all- from her sacrifices and suffering in general. I want her to feel like nothin is holding her down. If my dad died, I might end up in prison if I won't do it right and with my sister having her own life that she doesn't want to be disturbed, mom will have more time for herself and she could learn to love herself.136Please respect copyright.PENANALlAuWPjLI0