那天晚上私寓送完客,榮芳嘀咕霜莫怎麼不肯跟裴小姐吃飯,這樣就用不著陪私寓的客人了,還是叨念那句「姑娘家不會吞了他」。31Please respect copyright.PENANAJ54z2SIIZZ
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霜莫沒有回答,心裡卻忿忿在燒,一個下九流的伶人本來就沒有尊嚴可言,但他還是不容冒犯,不是別的什麼,就一串壓襟,他才不要別人施捨,靠著他皮肉賺錢的師傅也就罷了,榮芳幾乎天天陪在他身邊,卻從來沒懂過他。31Please respect copyright.PENANArrHeBzRIL8
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他躺上床鋪,沿著地上牢的影子向上望,望著小小的窗,外頭月光依稀地、遠遠地,想著那張毫不起眼的臉,那個總是傻愣愣地什麼也不懂,卻最真摯地理解自己的人。31Please respect copyright.PENANAyxk1sKplFd
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前臺唱戲聲還在縈縈繞繞,你一言我一語拉拉扯扯,二胡啞啞地鳴,後臺這兒也是哄哄鬧鬧,找頭面戲衣的、要見角兒的、送飲場茶的⋯⋯全都攪在一塊,昭翊站在廊上,恍若來到陌生的大街市,擦身而過的每個人都沒空理會他,也不曉得找霜莫要哪兒問。他跟一群住同條街的朋友來聽戲,碰巧看見霜莫在臺上唱,待霜莫唱完離場了他就來後臺想見見人,結果愣愣站了半晌也沒找著能問的人,想霜莫總會出來,就盯著後臺出入的門口等。31Please respect copyright.PENANAgSHe36xZ7R
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一對門大開著,門前的紅簾子抖呀抖,陸陸續續把裡頭的人抖出來,霜莫果然跟著一個穿馬褂的老人出來了,昭翊臉色一欣,腳步才跨出去,還沒來得及喊人,幾聲達達的急響,兩個年輕姑娘趨上去擋住了昭翊的視線,他從後頭看,見她們一個穿大袖短衫,一個穿樣式新穎的旗袍,應該就是大家閨秀和她的婢女了,只見側臉也能瞧出她的秀麗標緻,飽滿的耳垂上鑲一顆珍珠,唇角微微翹起來的時候尤其風情窈窕,昭翊忍不住多瞧兩眼那柔曲姣好的身板子。31Please respect copyright.PENANAcgePsQd63m
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那穿旗袍的姑娘從她的婢女手上接過一個匣子,端到霜莫面前,「這是一點小小心意,我父親下屬送來了好幾個,都一樣的,與其收在家裡頭,不如就送給有緣人吧。」她稍稍低了低臉,也掩不住那喜悅的光暈,「不敢說跟霜莫有什麼緣分⋯⋯都是您願意見我。」31Please respect copyright.PENANASX9xXyRtwM
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姑娘家藏在高高衣領下的綺思漫情,昭翊就算是根不開花的木頭也明白了,他挪開一步,從兩個姑娘身影之間突著眼睛瞧霜莫。31Please respect copyright.PENANAyLpltDbFgw
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霜莫一臉無動於衷,語氣帶酸,「哪有什麼願不願意。」一旁的老人趕緊托出雙手收了禮物,轉身就推到霜莫懷裡,他不得不伸手接下來。31Please respect copyright.PENANApdNDDfsT30
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三個人都圍著霜莫,六隻眼睛都盼著他,緊緊地逼,他眉頭抽了一下,像是被風驚起的水波,還是沒皺起來,勉勉強強,隱忍著什麼答謝:「霜莫就是個戲子,裴小姐太費心了。」31Please respect copyright.PENANAr0aM0yEXRO
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姑娘瑟瑟嘴唇,卻沒說出話來,老人倒是咧開嘴直笑:「裴姑娘對咱們霜莫實在費心思了,唱戲的讓座兒聽了高興是本分,竟然能讓裴姑娘惦記著,受寵若驚、受寵若驚啊!」31Please respect copyright.PENANAXrJBRQLF4o
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霜莫沒再開口,事不關己似的站在一旁,老人跟姑娘們又說了幾句話,她們就道謝離開了,撤去屏障,霜莫跟昭翊對上了眼,昭翊朝他大招幾下手,老人正背對著昭翊沒瞧見。31Please respect copyright.PENANA3POQiJEK5h
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「哎──得了,收拾了回去吧。」31Please respect copyright.PENANAVA6sqbwOej
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霜莫還是凜著臉,「我要聽了這齣再走。」老人點點頭,默默鑽入簾子裡,他臉上凝霜隨即化了,朝昭翊走來。31Please respect copyright.PENANA0eWsMMvWvj
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昭翊也三步併作兩步迎上去,趕一年一度的鵲橋似的,兩人湊到一塊,他拉拉霜莫的手,眉毛都拱到額頭上,眼睛亮爍爍地,「霜莫!我跟朋友一塊來的,看見你正在臺上唱呢,就來找你了,要去前頭聽戲麼?」31Please respect copyright.PENANAdIzZjJe6Hf
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霜莫眼光一轉,哼一聲:「誰真要聽戲了。」他說著就往另一頭走。31Please respect copyright.PENANAgT4ufPHSHT
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昭翊跟著走,霜莫帶他到附近的隔間裡,在空蕩蕩的鏡臺前坐了下來,隨手把匣子擱著,昭翊一闔上門,戲聲就遠了,戲臺上的霜莫是給座兒瞧的,月兒一般又清冷、又渺茫,這兒的霜莫只對著他一個人,輕靈的、空盈的雙腳踩上了凡間。31Please respect copyright.PENANAENWjaly1jx
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昭翊也在霜莫身旁拉了椅子坐,一條手臂揚起來就掛在椅背上,「剛才看見有個姑娘找你,原來你有女戲迷啊。」他眨眨眼睛,問得不經意的樣子,卻又伸脖子緊巴巴盯著霜莫,都要看穿人的臉皮了。31Please respect copyright.PENANAnEmT0HHO0d
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霜莫坐得端端正正,身子稍微轉向昭翊,同樣漫不經心,「有一些。」31Please respect copyright.PENANAYcq0Vzvbd7
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「人家看起來是大小姐呢,送你什麼啊?」昭翊眼光湊向桌上的匣子。31Please respect copyright.PENANAoluSsIPELX
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「不知道,看看吧。」31Please respect copyright.PENANASbxhC9c4Ow
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霜莫便把匣子揭開來了,裡頭襯著月白緞子,中間躺一柄折扇,湘妃竹的扇骨,染滿赭紅色的淚斑,柄尾掛白玉珠的墜子,他將扇子展開來,是紙糊的扇面,畫著木芙蓉,幾抹清清愁愁的水紅,一半盛開枝上,一半凋落歸土,側邊的留白題一句「質本潔來還潔去,不教污淖陷渠溝」。31Please respect copyright.PENANA5x02zmjGVM
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昭翊又驚訝又羨慕地呼一聲:「嘩!好精緻的扇子!是好東西呢。」31Please respect copyright.PENANAEjjqH2qLhn
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看扇子用料和畫工,的確是好東西,霜莫不喜歡那裴小姐,倒是對扇子挺中意,他當然看得透對方說的轉贈給他是假話,若不是對他有興趣,哪會特地來後臺攔人就為了送家裡頭多的東西,他瞧著扇面上的花開得冷情,竟然像自己,便神情複雜。31Please respect copyright.PENANAUctebrAmps
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「那個大小姐樣子真好看啊,氣質也好。」昭翊語氣亮朗,卻又熱烈得有些不尋常。31Please respect copyright.PENANAYW6a5FqlJF
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「是麼?」霜莫留意到了,抬眼看他。31Please respect copyright.PENANApJcaSRiXlK
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昭翊藏不住心情,眼睛是盯著霜莫,卻在他臉上飄來飄去定不下來,話開始說得磕磕絆絆,很是彆扭:「那個啊,霜莫,人家那麼漂亮⋯⋯你喜不喜歡啊?」31Please respect copyright.PENANAzA6Rre0sVJ
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霜莫被問得莫名其妙,嘴裡忽然嚐到一股糖醋蘿蔔的味道,醃壞了特別酸,不是滋味,「我做什麼喜歡她。」他瞪了昭翊一眼,把扇子闔起來扔回匣裡,也把那口酸味吞下去,卻酸到心裡去,不禁皺了眉。31Please respect copyright.PENANAIO6H0TajLf
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他正忖度昭翊肚子裡裝的什麼,會說出這樣的怪話,昭翊又補上話:「人家好像很喜歡你呢,你好受歡迎啊,想起來沒問過你⋯⋯」他猶豫了一會,語氣忡忡,「喜不喜歡女孩兒?」31Please respect copyright.PENANAHCct0iRC5X
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這話是一塊尖石捶在心窩上、一盆髒水淋在頭頂上,霜莫先是錯愕,再來是失落,望著昭翊惴惴不安的神情,他也臉色一青──這簡直就是狠毒的污辱,用蠍子尖針冷不防刺了他一記,才回神瘡口就給毒得沁出黑血。31Please respect copyright.PENANAT9r5Y0IsIx
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霜莫扶著妝檯慢慢站起來,感覺自己正昏昏晃晃,晃得心都在胸口裡咚咚亂撞,昭翊隨他動作抬起臉,他的臉給燈光照得一邊明、一邊暗,混沌和顧憂都揉在了一塊,霜莫身體裡的血和毒也揉在一塊,脈搏跳得洶湧狂猛。31Please respect copyright.PENANALxBsemj67S
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他咬著嘴,好像只要張口說話就會嘔出血來,想說些什麼,卻說不出半個字。31Please respect copyright.PENANADCwcKqjQ8U
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「你怎麼啦?對不起,我不問了,你別不高興。」昭翊急忙道歉,湊上來按著霜莫手臂想要安撫他。31Please respect copyright.PENANAaSVNTWHxRX
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但已經遲了,霜莫推開他,一把抓起扇子打開來,從中間用力揪住扇面。31Please respect copyright.PENANAloxsIGPYMQ
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「啊!別撕啊!怎麼說都是人家送你的。」昭翊慌張叫著,一把抓向霜莫手腕要阻止,卻被閃開了。31Please respect copyright.PENANAyJzw49MEMC
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嘶啦──霜莫一股狠勁就把扇子撕成兩半,從大大扯開的裂縫之間看見昭翊驚詫的臉色。31Please respect copyright.PENANAeNxeUSAua0
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「霜莫!你不高興就罵我吧,別弄壞東西啊!」31Please respect copyright.PENANAWPaBai9gGf
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霜莫聽了體內毒血更滾騰,臉色又青又紅,青是幽怨,紅是忿恨,嘶啦、嘶啦、嘶啦──他把扇子撕個稀爛作發洩,還甩在地上踐踏,他受了屈辱,這罪魁禍首也別想好過。31Please respect copyright.PENANABUdseICibK
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怎麼能疑心他、怎麼能疑心他?明明一直揣藏著的心思都給這人摸走了,他壓根一眼都不屑看那女子,一眼都不屑看其他人!31Please respect copyright.PENANAuLOCIXPWZh
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「我又不稀罕,你送新的給我。」他口氣決絕,瞪著昭翊的眼光已然淚濕瑩瑩。31Please respect copyright.PENANAlJbpjL8QIt
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昭翊愣住了,「霜莫⋯⋯」他惶惶失措地囁嚅,說不出什麼來,手朝霜莫探過來又縮回去,沒有碰上來。31Please respect copyright.PENANALbUPT5b1Wh
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霜莫視線晶茫茫地,見昭翊的臉在水光裡扭曲晃盪,眼裡一汪波潮盈得太滿,太委屈了,就潰了出來,涓涓滴滴,都沿他面頰落下去,淋濕了腳下踩的扇子殘片,原來這扇子是來同他哭的,都是血淚斑斑。31Please respect copyright.PENANANYRkRwbBT4
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他想證明些什麼,又氣得不肯表明心跡,只得用淚漣漣的雙眼脈脈向著昭翊,向著他一洩方才那話有多麼讓人怨毒。31Please respect copyright.PENANAhWSgdKcZAR
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昭翊一臉焦急,湊上衣袖給霜莫抹眼淚,才抹去一痕,新落下來的又在臉上淋漓了一糊,「對不起,你別哭啊⋯⋯」31Please respect copyright.PENANAyHJEPRzOvx
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只知道說對不起,這二愣子竟然還不明白,帶毒的血氣一下子猛衝上來,霜莫腦門疼得不行,抓了桌上匣子就砸下去,砸出好大聲響。31Please respect copyright.PENANAqW8tJB8Ehy
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「我要你給的,才不要那臭婊子的!」31Please respect copyright.PENANA7IbaAn1QhS
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這一砸,把他細密擁護的、幽微不發的、珍若稀寶的鍾情都砸開了,全撒在地上給昭翊看個清楚。31Please respect copyright.PENANAFSJ8dWQKgN
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昭翊終於恍然大醒,張臂一攬抱住淚人兒,「我明白了、明白了,我明白你不喜歡她,你別哭了。」他一個勁去接霜莫眼淚,濕了整片袖口也捨不得漏下一點一滴。31Please respect copyright.PENANAPRXffsKr3I
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霜莫反而抽噎起來,給淚水淹得看不清眼前人的臉了,只聽見他含含糊糊說了幾個字,偏偏這時候文武場的鑼鼓打得激昂,前臺的歌聲拔尖著拉腔,把話蓋過去了。31Please respect copyright.PENANAAmVRfWpqdq
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「我知道你喜歡我的嘛!」昭翊的嗓音忽然排開嘈鬧樂聲,在霜莫耳邊喊,這一聲春雷似的貫耳,突如其來,又真切坦然,「都是我不好,就是女戲迷而已嘛,是人家找你的⋯⋯我很高興呢,我也很喜歡你。」他溫和的、縝綿的嗓音是一陣春雨澆下來,沁化了霜莫血裡的毒,滌清了他心上的怨。31Please respect copyright.PENANAjzDHVNLWjv
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霜莫還在流淚,對昭翊翻翻眼,掄拳頭往他額心叩了一下,半氣半羞罵人:「混帳沒心眼的,誰喜歡你了!」31Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6Lv7L3GT7
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「啊?怎麼又不喜歡了?」昭翊再給他擦擦淚,沒忍住一臉好笑,又挨了一記,嘴角卻咧得更開了,用那對純然透澈的眼睛瞧他,「霜莫,你真可愛啊。」31Please respect copyright.PENANArHsMLpVSc5
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霜莫心弦一震,面頰燙起來,乾脆一臉鑽進昭翊懷裡不讓看了。31Please respect copyright.PENANAvS07eP9MBH
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他嗅著昭翊身上暖暖的油脂氣味,依著寬實的胸口,聽著裡頭砰砰有力的心音,昭翊扣住他的腰,把他摟得更近,他也悄悄揪住了昭翊身後的衣角,這才停了眼淚。31Please respect copyright.PENANApBMKyXiVdZ
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兩人安靜了半晌,外頭戲聲又低了,昭翊語帶歉疚開口:「那樣的扇子我買不起,買普通竹子扇骨、糊素面紙的給你行不行啊?」原來他還在意霜莫那句話。31Please respect copyright.PENANAWZK9v9HrJT
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「用不著了,誰稀罕那個。」霜莫卻漫不在乎,會送他那些好東西的人多了去了,可這樣顧惜他的人只有這一個。31Please respect copyright.PENANAP3v3k8X9MO
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他倆又說了一會話,離開隔間前收拾了碎滿地的扇子,昭翊直說可惜,上頭畫得這麼好看的花就這樣沒了,霜莫笑不然要跟黛玉一樣去葬花麼?最後兩人還是把殘骸裝回匣子,讓霜莫帶回去,他想這扇子碎得值得,就留著沒扔了。31Please respect copyright.PENANA35pPpRjxwL