~past tense~
All of the shops are what my mum would call millionaire shops. Or in other words for people who can afford expensive stuff.
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We walked around the art shop for some time. Jay talking to me about each print and making me laugh. Now we're standing in a dress shop. I feel a little self conscious. I've never bought a dress that cost so much. The fabrics are thick and well crafted. I take a few dresses; a backless black one that Jay boggles at, a red strappy one, and one Jay chooses which is maroon. My favourite colour.
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I try the black one on, I show him he's sitting in the chairs by the mirrors.
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"To be fair Taylor you could wear a sack and look stunning" he laughs.
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"It's stunning" he says as I turn around showing him how low cut it is at the back.
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Next I try on the red one, it's strappy and shows too much. Still I show him. My cleavage looks phenomenal.
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"I ugh can't concentrate" he laughs.
"That looks great" he says, smiling and biting his lip.
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I sigh and head in to try on his choice.
"This is perfect Jay" I say before heading out.
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It's low cut without being too low cut, it's my favourite colour. It emphasises my body without looking too much. I walk out to show him. He looks up speechless and I know it's perfect.
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"That dress was made for you" he smiles.
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Once I've changed we head to the desk and Jay gets the dress, I protest. A lot. But he smiles at the shop clerk and hands over his card.
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"You know you don't have to buy me stuff right" I tell him once we're walking back to the lake house.
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"I know Tay but I wanted to buy you this one thing please let me" he smiles.
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I look away, that smile is going to be the end of me.
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***
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We spend the afternoon together in the lake house.
He's so affectionate, he doesn't stop touching me. He kisses me and holds me and I have to admit the attention is well received.
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"You have to let me know if I'm being too clingy" he laughs.
"Im gonna admit something to you, I've not had a proper relationship before so I don't know what's too much" he laughs.
We're laying on the sofa looking out at the lake, we haven't even turned the TV on. We're just happy to be in each other's company. My legs are in his lap and he is stroking up and down my thigh. It's so relaxing. His hands are magical.
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"No this is great, perfect actually" I tell him.
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He looks at my leg intently.
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"You okay?" I say quietly watching him.
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"I'm more than okay." He smiles.
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"You were looking at me intently" I say laughing
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"I was thinking about us" he says stroking my lips with his fingers.
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"And" I say.
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"I've just not felt this way, before. I was thinking you know even if you did move in, it would give us a chance to be together all the time" he says searching my eyes.
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"Yes as much as I want that Jay, I don't want to rush into it and then you get put off by me" I say smiling at him.
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He laughs out loud.
"If anything babe you would get put off by me. Not the other way around" he says to me.
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I smile at him.
"Okay let's think about it" I say concluding. I rushed into things with Matty. We were everything to each other so soon, and then it ended in heart break.
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"Okay" he smiles. And he kisses my lips sweetly.
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"You know when you said you wanted to do things properly, well so do I. I don't want to make past mistakes again" I say to him. He glances over at me.
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"Yes I get that. I don't want to jeopardise us." He smiles.
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"So I've also still got stuff to move from Matty's" I say.
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"When I left I was angry and I kind of just went, with the essentials. I wanted to be away from everything" I say.
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"Can I ask what happened" he asks softly
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I look at him shyly.
"So I think it was a few things, we had the miscarriage. And then of course it made me face a few things, like us. You and I had been getting to know each other at the same time which is kind of bad but it is what it is" I say honestly.
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"He got kinda jealous of you Jay, everything about our friendship made him annoyed. And we would argue about it. And I can see his point in a way" I say.
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"Im sorry" he says.
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"No you don't need to apologise. But I mean like if I was with you, and you were kissing Rach. Then I would be pissed and I would act the same way" I say.
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"Does he know all of it" he asks.
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"No. I just argued with him and ran. Which is bad. He begged me to stay" I say reliving it.
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"I can understand that" he says.
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"So I need to find a way of working that all out, I don't know how he's going to react to it" I say.
"When we talked the other day he told me he still loved me, he thinks he does but he's in love with the idea of being with me and who I was" I say.
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"Okay I see where you are with it all" he says stroking my hair back.
"If you want me to collect your things I can" he says.
"And then we can meet at Ross' and move everything into your new illustrious dorm room" he says smiling.
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"Actually that's not a bad idea" I say
"Thanks" I tell him.
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He smiles back at me.
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"These are all firsts for me too, I'm not used to feeling this way. I'm happy though to wait until you are in the right place" he says.
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We smile at each other. That new feeling of being in love with somebody and wanting to touch them all the time is dominating my thoughts. I feel as though we have talked through a lot of the stuff we needed to air out. And now we have a sense of clarity over our situation. I'm excited to see in the next chapter of our relationship.
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