***Taylor's POV***
-past tense~
January
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"I trust you but I have to tell you some things" I say and it's important.
He just nods.
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"I'm a bad person. I got high with Ross last night, we went to bed separately. But I woke up in the night and I decided to join him in bed. Not just to sleep" I say and I'm feeling tipsy.
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"And I don't know what to do? Because he is in love with me, I know that I'm such a bitch because he literally told me he wanted me forever and I just took him because I could have him" I say and I should shut up.
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He eyes me.
"I told you once that I liked everything about you. I know you and I won't pretend you don't have a naughty side Taylor. And whilst I want you too myself, completely. You are single and I'm not judging you." He says smiling his hands travelling up my arms.
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"Jay really I don't deserve you" I say.
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He moves his chair around so he's sitting next to me. He places his arm around my shoulders.
"You deserve much more than me" he says staring into my eyes.
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He kisses me lightly on my lips.
The band start playing some more upbeat music and my tipsy brain is feeling it.
He smiles at me.
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"You do honestly, if anything I do not deserve you. And I get that you're still working things out for yourself" he says maturely.
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"That women, over there" I say giggling
"She has eye fucked you twice" I tell him.
He's leaning back, arm hooked around me and his leg crossed over his knee
"And the reason I bring it up is because you can literally have anybody. Most women would say yes Jay. You do not have to wait around for me." I say
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"You are delusional, you're much more beautiful. She's like a five and you're like an eleven out of ten." He smiles.
"When I was with Rach, don't laugh, but I could only ever think about you. Don't get me wrong I should have ended things or not started seeing her at all. But she would say things and in my head I would think well Tay wouldn't say that. And when we you know, I couldn't stop thinking about you" he admits
"I can't just get with other women now. Which really fucked me up by the way, because that was my main coping mechanism" he laughs.
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I stare at him for a few minutes.
"I don't expect anything back from you, but I'm more than happy to be exclusively yours" he says softly. I lean in and kiss his lips, slowly. My body and mind want him. What girl wouldn't?
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We finish our champagne.
Jay who is the ultimate bad boy, dressed in his crisp white shirt, lots of buttons undone revealing tats and sleeves rolled up. Stands up and takes me to the dance floor. It's not busy but it's not empty either.
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"What kind of date would this be if there was no dancing" he smiles.
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He places his arms around my waist and we're swaying again. Like we did last time we danced. Being close to him like this is so sensual. My dress is almost backless and I can feel his hands on me. My hips sway in time with him and before I know it three songs have come and gone. I find it relaxing dancing with him; he takes his time and he allows me all the time in the world to move around him.
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He holds my body but he makes sure he doesn't over step the mark either. I don't want it to end.
"More champagne?" He asks in my ear
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"One glass" I say and he smiles.
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He takes me over to the bar and we order some more champagne.
"What would you like to do now" he smiles down at me.
"More dancing ?" He says softly.
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I nod and we head back over to the slightly busier dance floor.
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"You know Jay, I'm convinced we can make a dancer out of you" I say in his ear.
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"We can" he says back in my ear.
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We dance for ages, I actually lose myself in it. I don't think about anything but him and his proximity and his closeness. However, he never grabs my bum or touches me inappropriately.
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I glance at the time.
"Jay baby" I say drunk in his ear. Did I just call him baby?
He smiles rubbing my back briefly.
"Yes" he says.
"Taylor" he chuckles. Raising his tanned arm to push his blonde hair away from his face.
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"It's nearly midnight" I say.
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"You Cinderella?" he laughs in my ear.
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I'm aware of how close his face is to mine.
I chuckle.
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"That's nice" he comments his mouth on my ear.
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"What's nice" I say back playfully.
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"You laughing with me" he says softly.
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I can't help it, he's so smooth and I kiss his cheek lightly.
"That's even nicer" he whispers.
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"Shhh" I say bravely.
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"Okay" he whispers.
We stay in each other's arms for another hour. He just spends time with me. Neither of us expect anything, we are just there for each other.
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"I have had you all night in my arms. I can give you back now" he whispers in my ear.
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"Mmm this has been great" I tell him.
I move my arms to around his neck.
I push my chest against him, I want him.
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"Taylor behave" he says quietly
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But it only turns me on, more.
"Or?" I sigh.
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He spins me around so I'm facing the other way arms still around my waist body flush with his.
"Or I will take you home with me" he whispers.
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I smile and rock my hips against his.
"I love this side to you" he says in my ear.
“Who am I kidding I love everything” he mutters.
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He spins me around again, and we have a moment. He holds my eye contact. My body isn’t even touching his now but this is somehow more intimate.
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Once we grab our coats and head to the car he passes me a cigarette in the car. He begins driving. We haven’t said anything since leaving.
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He lights up his own cigarette and we’re on the freeway. It’s not busy and shouldn’t take us long to get back.
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“I would love to invite you to mine but I think that’s more like a third date thing isn’t it” he laughs.
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I smile looking out the window.
“Yeah or second” I smile.
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I check my phone, I have a message from Ross asking if I’m okay which I respond to. Worst is I have a message from Matty.