***Ross POV***
~past tense~
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I've texted Matty, it's the right thing to do.
I want to make it clear that I won't try shit because of whatever it is that's going on. It's obviously Jay. He's probably gotten into her head. Like he does with every single girl.
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My phone beeps. It's Matty.
"Thanks man, I know I'm glad it's you. See you tomorrow" he's replied.
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I love her, this is like my dream come true but I would not ever take advantage of any girl like that. Yes I'll be there for her but I would not push myself on her. Ever, especially not now.
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I lay down and try to sleep I've left my door ajar just in case. I wonder what happened, I won't ask until she starts openly discussing it with me. It can't be that Matty did something because he wouldn't do that to her. It has to be Jay. He's been all over her like a rash, charming and doting on her. I'm going to have to try and keep him away, whilst she's not with Matty he will strike.
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***
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I wake up to a dark room, check my alarm clock and it says 1am.
I hear her crying and my heart breaks a little. I dress myself in my t-shirt and pull on some jogging bottoms. I walk in the dark to her room.
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"Shh" I say softly sitting on the edge of the bed.
"It's okay" I say.
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"Sorry" she mutters.
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I hesitate at first and then stroke her hair back as she's laying there. Her crying quietens.
"Do you want some water" I ask her.
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"No I'm okay, sorry for waking you" she says.
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"Stop apologising." I say leaning back on the bed frame.
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She stops crying and she relaxes next to me, her breathing steady.
"Ross can you stay" she says quietly.
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"Yes sure" I say and she moves over in the bed.
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I lay flat on my back over the duvet, tucking it in around her. I keep my hands on my chest.
I try to drift asleep but her proximity keeps me awake.
"Are you cold?" She whispers.
"I get it you're being you, but I know you're not gonna try it on. Don't freeze because of it" she says smiling.
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"I'm fine Taylor" I say back.
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Soon she's asleep. I can hear her breathing lightly. I sneak a glance at her, she's so perfect even after crying all night. Her long lashes and pink lips. Hair draped around her slender shoulders. I stroke a lock of her hair back. Her arm reaches out for me and I know I should leave. She strokes my shoulder.
"Cold" she mutters half asleep. No babe I'm freezing I think. I want my duvet.
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We have had more physical contact than this before, but now she's technically single and somehow it feels different to me. Most guys would jump at this chance. I can't it's not right.
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She moves the duvet over me. I give in laying on my back with her tucked in my side. We fall asleep together.
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***
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When I wake up her arm is over my chest and her head rested on me. She stirs stroking me half asleep. I'm so glad I wore thick jogging bottoms because I need to hide how turned on I am. I can smell her sweet shampoo, feel her warmth from her body. It's literally what I've wanted for years.
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"Ross" she says quietly.
"I'm sorry for waking you up all night" she says.
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"It's okay" I say hoarsely.
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She faces me, in bed and her eyes look at mine with adoration. Like they always do.
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"You can stay as long as you want" I laugh to break the moment we're having.
Harder still is that she is going to try it on with me because she feels insecure and delicate and she needs somebody. I'm going to have to face the love of my life and knock her back.
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She smiles and her hand traces my chest.
Travels up my neck to my jaw and she pulls my face to hers so I'm facing her.
"We've known each other for how long Ross" she questions.
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"Taylor" I say soberly.
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She shh's me. I'm so hard it's unreal, but I have to control myself.
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"You know I'm in love with you be fair" I say.
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She kisses my cheek lightly.
"Thank you" she begins.
"For everything you do for me" she says and kisses me again.
"You always look out for me" she kisses me on my lips I don't reciprocate.
"And make me feel safe" she says and she kisses my lips again. I'm falling hard for her all over again I kiss her back.
"And so happy" she says and we're kissing each other.
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"Taylor" I say as she kisses me her hands rested on my chest.
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"Mmm" she says.
"Ross come on you told me you loved me and that we were supposed to be together" she argues.
"I'm here now" she says.
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Her hands rest on my hips.
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"Okay fine" she smiles when I refuse to touch her.
"Am I that undesirable?" She says.
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"You know it's not that" I say shocked.
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"Well what is it then" she asks.
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"Taylor it's the opposite, I don't want to take advantage of you, because you're upset" I explain.
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She kisses me again her hands pulling my hips to her.
"Okay let me thank you somehow for being there for me" she says and I'm so close to her.
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"You can do that by getting out of this bed, before you rush into this too soon. I want you Taylor, when you are ready to want me back completely. Now dress before I change my mind and then I will take you into uni" I say calmly. Her lips just inches from mine.
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She smiles, gets out of bed and heads to the bathroom and I sigh. Man I am a good guy.
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